Is this your life?

“And still, after all this time, the Sun has never said to the Earth,
“You owe me.”
Look what happens with love like that.
It lights up the sky.” — Hafez

Let me get this straight, once and for all. We have one life, and yet we never stop to consider if this life is the one we should be living. Yes, there are many turns along the way, some good, some bad, but, in the end, there’s not a lot of deviation in the system.

All my life I’ve considered the meaning of a life well lived but, in the end, it’s clear that chasing a career and all that that entails is never going to lead to self-realisation.

At best, it’s a compromise.

Now, it’s very likely that you can’t imagine your life any other way, or you think that the grass is no greener than the plot you inhabit, but until you drop your past conditioning, live in the moment and connect with your higher Self, you’ll never know.

I’m not saying that everyone’s the same, but, save in the few cases where people have had to confront death, it all goes the same way.

What a tragic waste!

I know some people will think me a crazed lunatic for throwing away my legal career, but it was a small price to pay for awakening to my true self.

Part of me wishes for a revolution. But none of us are that brave. Instead, we hide our gifts and lose connection with our true selves. Honesty, trust, love, compassion — in the end they’re just labels.

Of course, to many people this message is misplaced. They will say that I’m better off in the system than outside. But I’m not sure. Part of me can see that perspective, but another, larger part, feels very uncomfortable turning up in a suit when I can’t get a straight answer to the question, “Yes, but what’s enough?”.

Who knows where this is going to end. If it was just me, I would have, by now, unplugged from the grid, but with a family to support I have to be more considered. That said, things have moved on and I know that sooner rather later things will come to a head whereby I’m either all in bar the shouting or not.

If I was a betting man, I know which side of the line I’ll fall.