Living in the questions

I’m tired.

I’m tired of saying the same thing whether it involves personal, corporate or environmental transformation. 

That’s change to you and me. 

The truth is — my truth — if we cared enough, we needn’t be told any of these things.

Instead, we’d feel it and then act, hopefully.

But that means living with uncertainty or, as I like to say, living in the question:

What am I?

How do I reinvent the company or my team?

How I can address the climate and biodiversity crises?

Sadly, that’s not how we’re wired. We want answers; or, more likely, we’ve already worked out the answer and are living it:

“I’m [name], married with three children; I have a great job as [insert] earning good money; and I get to travel at least once a year.”

“We don’t need to reinvent the company: it’s fine as it is.”

“Climate change is an issue but we’ve got plenty of time to sort it out.”

You might think I’m trying to set myself apart in writing this blog post. I’m not. I’m merely reflecting on the fact that through my work, and the people I meet — professionally or otherwise — I don’t hear anyone willing to own up to their part in the three questions above (as examples). It’s either a case of denial or they’re not willing to change the status quo, no matter that they’re unhappy, holding down a Batshit job or can’t see how much the earth has changed and will continue to change now and across the near term.

Where does that leave me?

I’m not sure.

Thankfully, I’ve now got two weeks off work and I’ve already discussed with my wife how I intend to try and work through or live into my own questions. I don’t know, yet, what they are (I’ve a vague suspicion what they might be…) but I do know that I want to be useful in some way or another.

Deep bows


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