Losing everything

“It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.”
― Marcus Aurelius, Meditations

When you get right down to it, the reason people don’t want to change is because they fear losing what they’ve got.

And not at the edges but everything.

What does that mean in terms of all the things you’re drawn to but never do?

You live a half life or no life at all.

Mostly, we seem okay with that.

We’re resigned to accept that the moral and/or money imperative is our highest ideal, even though, in the early years, we never saw it that way.

What if we were prepared instead to face our fears?

What would that mean?

For a start, we’d have to interrogate our mythical story, the one that says that to get on we’ve got to be someone — a label if you wish.

But for the few brave souls amongst you, what would happen if you reached a point with said investigation that made no sense or showed you just how senseless it was to live according to someone’s else dreams, desires or wishes? (Sadly, that’s mostly what happens. We think we’re following our call but we rarely do.)

Would you let go, completely?

Perhaps I can come at this post another way. If money was no object (not that you had it sorted but it wasn’t the driving or only force), how would you live your life?

Would you do what you’re doing now?

No. What then?

Would you even know your call?

I doubt it.

Instead, you’d have to let go (again) of another story that says the thing you enjoy or love most doesn’t have to earn its way. It just is.

In my case, that would be writing.

It just is.

There’s no need to consider myself a writer — famous or otherwise.

The act of creation is more than enough.

Do I wish we all went through this metamorphosis?

Yes, absolutely, for if we did I’m convinced the world would not be ravaged by greed, intemperance and a longing to be seen.

Then again, whilst the money is in play and no one questions the story, I’m afraid that we’ll all remain wedded to the hamster wheel we call life.

Take care.

Julian

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