“To be nobody but
yourself in a world
which is doing its best day and night to make you like
everybody else means to fight the hardest battle
which any human being can fight and never stop fighting.”
― e.e. cummings
Much has been written about our inner critic. In fact, personal development has been usurped by the new wave of prehistoric text that behoves all of us to get in touch with the now.
And I get it.
Honestly, I do.
But if it was that simple, the world wouldn’t look this way.
As I’ve said repeatedly on this blog and Twitter, the earth is wrought in our image, and that means ipso fact we’ve acted on our inner monologue rather than connecting with the now — i.e. true self. Yikes!
Truth is, the monolith of mindfulness et al. hasn’t done anything to change the dominant narrative. Sure, a few people have got in touch with something deeper than answering the call of the inner consumer voice but it’s not enough.
For me, we’ve got to go much deeper.
We’ve got to go beyond the witnessing presence to our inner voice — see The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle — and understand that **this** (see the video below of Jim Newman) is everything.
I realise to the thinking self how hard this is to fathom but what I’m inviting is not to identify with anything more than the absolute — your spirit essence if you wish. And you might think (once again) I’ve jumped off the cliff of sanity to the depths of some woo-woo, ethereal place.
I haven’t. I’m very much of this world — just like you.
Ask anyone about their deepest, most profound experience and everyone reverts to an almost out-of-body experience where there is no mind.
If you need a better label, you may have heard the term Flow made popular by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi; or you may prefer a more secular term like God, Allah or Godhead. It doesn’t matter the label. What matters is the deep resonant space available to us all.
The problem, hence our desperate seeking, is to stay in that state whilst still functioning in the real world.
But it’s not a problem to presence or awareness because that would be like Alan Watts said:
“Trying to define yourself is like trying to bite your own teeth.”
In the end, if you’re not careful you can drive yourself mad seeking bliss-consciousness.
I should know because that’s what it was like for me.
These days I don’t sweat it. I know when I’m out of sorts with true self and rather than trying to force anything, I know things will settle and I’ll once again connect with a deeper self. I can, of course, trick myself by wandering in nature or scribbling a few verses of poetry, but the truth is there’s nothing I need do.
In summary, I know it’s hard to stay deeply connected when you’re at war with your inner voice and no amount of cheerleading from these quarters is going to make any difference to your woeful state of mind but if you’re willing to open your heart fully to what is, everything changes now and forever.